(yes, that is me in the pic)

Age: 22
Height: 5ft6
HW: 123 *gag me*
LW: 108
CW: 111
GW1: 108.5
GW2: 103
UGW: 99 ????

So you actually want to know a little bit about myself. Well, i'm 22 years old and currently a jr in college. When i was 14 years old i was sent to see a counselor about my "disorderd" eating. I was never officially diagnosed as anorexic or ed-nos but i knew that it wasn't normal what i did  nor did i really care to give it up. All through high school i was overly obsesive about what i ate and would often volunteer to help teachers out durring lunch just so i wouldn't have to go and eat.

Then i went to college, a military college no less. At that point it was *but is no longer* my dream to be a military officer. Freshmen year sucked. If any of you have seen movies or videos about what happens to freshmen at military colleges a lot of the times it's that bad. So i started to cut and was sent to see the school psychologist. After about two meetings w/ him though i gave up on the meetings and stopped going.

After first semester sophomore year i did something no one expected. I joined the reserves. While in boot i was forced to eat "double rations" because of my weight. That and w/ the help of the MRE's we had to eat at MCT i got up to my heighest weight. After i was done w/ all my training my unit of all units was called up for deployment. While deployed i tried to avoid the chow hall if at all possible because who knew what the hell they were even serving us. For some reason over there though i could not lose the weight. And it wasn't until i came back to the states in early/mid '05 that i was able to start losing the weight the military made me gain and start losing again.

It's hard for me cause whenever i restrict for so long it begins to affect my training ability here at school. *yes i returned to the military college* i can't run as hard, or train as hard. While i love the military and being a reservist though i just can't give this up and go back to being a fat body again. I tried doing it the "right" way but it wasn't working. I am who i am and my eating disorder or disordered eating *whichever you prefer to call it* is who i am.